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The Reality of the 0.0004%: Why I Am Building My Own Escape.
The odds of a random person chosen from 8 billion people owning a McLaren are exactly 1 in 228,571 (0.0004375%). Lamborghini: 1 in 72,000 Ferrari: 1 in 26,600 Porsche: 1 in 1,600 Bugatti: 1 in 964,700 (0.000103%) What about a “real” Porsche or Ferrari? Then these odds drop even further. And what about all those…
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It was December 1, 2024
It was December 1, 2024—the very days I bought my phone, which was my only helper during the 1.5 years I spent launching and managing my blog and YouTube channel. So why December 1, 2024? I was on a two-week vacation at my cousin’s house, and I had actually bought the phone there. December 1…
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In Pursuit of a Film: “In Between” and Melancholy
Today, I want to talk about another movie: “In Between.” It was released in early 2022, and I remember watching it during its very first weeks. It was a production that affected me more than I expected, even though it didn’t have an extraordinary plot… It focused on a young girl named Tessa who loses…
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We’ll see each other sometime.
Lately, some things have really gotten to me, so I’m taking a break from blogging for a bit to get through it. I’m not feeling good and I’m super unhappy. I have no idea what’s next, so I don’t know what the future holds. Thanks for all your support so far. See ya, whenever that…
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Violence, Fear, and the Childhood I Survived
Memories of my childhood and adolescence suddenly flooded my mind. How much violence I witnessed played out before my eyes, again and again. I was bullied constantly — both at school and at home. Each experience, on its own, pushed me to my limit. School Years The reason my nose is crooked, for instance, goes…
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The Man I Was Supposed to Call Father
I want to tell you a little about my father. I want to talk in detail about why I don’t love him. By the end of this post, I hope you’ll understand where I’m coming from. Please listen to what I share with empathy. I think we need to go back to the period spanning…
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I Don’t Know What Tomorrow Holds. I Only Hope.
These days I don’t know what to do with myself. While wandering through the world I’ve built inside my own mind, I pretend to like people I don’t like in the real world. I’m deceiving myself because I’m suppressing my unhappiness and my hopes — as always. I think about the dreams I hope will…
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I Used to Pretend I Knew. I Don’t Anymore
I feel deeply embarrassed listening to people who think they know everything. We should think more carefully and act with far more humility about things we can never reach a definitive conclusion on. I encountered this problem constantly in my own family and life. My youth and childhood unfortunately passed under exactly this kind of…
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16.000 ~ Followers, One Bad Decision, and Everything After
It was almost 4 years ago on TikTok. I had opened a page called Adriana’s Wings and started posting. Completely unaware of copyright issues, I was sharing every underwear video I could get my hands on. Genuine runway videos featuring real women. I think before two months had even passed, my videos had gone viral.…
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A Risk Named Adriana’s Wings
I honestly don’t know why I bought the tablet. I feel disappointed. When I bought it, I thought it would make my work easier, but unfortunately it didn’t turn out the way I expected. The pen doesn’t work the way it should. While scrolling Reels on Instagram, some videos freeze. After generating a video with…
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I’m truly alone now.
I mentioned to you that I had made a new friend. I think that friend is no longer in my life either. Every day, I understand more clearly how difficult it is to make friends. Having a friendship where you share similar values and mutually support each other under all circumstances is truly a luxury.…
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14, Februray. Special day but not for me.
Today is February 14, Valentine’s Day. I will publish this in the coming days. I want to talk about the tablet I bought today and the mood changes I experienced throughout the day Lately, I’ve generally been very conflicted, but as the days pass, I feel more and more overwhelmed. Along with that, I keep…
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Why am I constantly depressed? I’m trying to learn English…
I’ve realized that my writings are quite depressive. It wouldn’t be wrong to say that many people see this as exaggerated, but I’m writing the truth. I write in whatever psychological state I’m in during the day — neither more nor less. I don’t write what should be, I write what is. Mine is not…
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I have a weak mind.
This is a heavy self-criticism, at least that’s what I planned when I started writing, because I don’t know how honestly I can speak to myself. I am not in a time when I should be criticizing myself; right now, without questioning whose fault it is, I should find a way to escape the life…
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I Don’t Want to Know the Future – That’s Why I Will Succeed.
Nothing I change on my blog, my YouTube channel, or my Instagram and TikTok pages ever truly gives me the feeling of “enough.” It always feels like there is some unreachable better point ahead of me, yet I’m not even sure if that point really exists.In the past year alone, I’ve made so many changes…
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The truth really upsets me.
Job I feel extremely useless. I’ve been looking for a job for a long time. At first, I started with the mindset that “any job will do,” but the moment I began reading the working conditions, I fell into an even deeper depression. What’s being offered isn’t humane working conditions at all — it’s nothing…
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A Letter ChatGPT Wrote to Me”
I thought about what I went through in 2025—it was a tough year, full of pain, and yes, sometimes it was bad, but it was also a brave year. I don’t know how I survived, but here I am. I also wanted to hear it from the perspective of artificial intelligence. I asked ChatGPT a…
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What I Realized Before Starting My Blog
I realized that before I started blogging, I never actually did any research. I didn’t read other bloggers, didn’t study their writing styles, and didn’t even check how long their posts usually are. At first, I didn’t think it mattered—but now I can clearly see both the pros and the cons. While scrolling through “Medium,”…
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When Faith Turns Into Hatred
đź–¤ When Faith Turns Into Hatred I feel bad — actually, not exactly bad. It’s a mix of sadness and anger. Earlier today, while scrolling through Twitter, I came across a heartbreaking story: 24 trans women attempted suicide together. Then I read the quotes. And the comments. That’s when I realized something terrifying — humanity’s…
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When Hope Fades, Only Questions Remain
🌫 Empty Mind, Heavy Heart I once said I would share a blog every three days, but I can’t keep up with that. These days my mind feels completely empty, and I don’t know what to write. I don’t want to write just for the sake of it, but since I love expressing my feelings,…
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